Draft Day

okay, so i cleared out my drafts...  i may stay here and not worry about an alternate space.  too many things at once sounds busy.  i need simplicity.  your mom is private, but, also, wants to share life.  im impossible to understand, on that front.  i have no idea why im private.  i have not one thing to hide or be ashamed of or whatever...  im actually a tad on the boring/conservative side, i think.  as much as i love wild and quirky things - art, people, movies, music - i, personally, am pretty simple.  a true loner with many, many interests.  who knows.  i could be completely wrong about myself.  perhaps, one day, you'll have an opinion of me.  i hope you love me. if you love me even a fraction of how much i love you, i will be the happiest person to live.  you'll see how much love i have through my writings.  its nothing that can be suppressed!  nor should it!  i told someone, yesterday, that you bring out the absolute best in me.  and you do.  i've never felt happier in my entire life.  granted, i've had a bit of a stressed and damaged childhood and it seems anything would be an improvement, but this isnt even close to that...  its a spectrum of its own.  parenthood has changed me for the better.  i want to be your beacon of light, in an, otherwise, crazy world.  i'm a stable human and i want you to have balance, too.  with just a touch of crazy.  ;)

over the next few weeks, i'll continually add to this chronicle about your first few months of life.  as of today, you're four and a half months and more amazing than ever. 

i cry over you.  i cry just looking at you.

i love you.

Plant-based Henna

july, 2015

i wanted to do something memorable while pregnant with you.  i decided on henna.  the woman came to our house and was a delight.  this is her working.

I Lift Dead People

august, 2015

i get a lot of grief from non-athletes and the uknowing, alike, regarding lifting weights and pregnancy.  i've done so much research, asked a plethora of questions to healthcare professionals, and read testimonies from athletes and general work-out gurus that i feel more than comfortable with my regimen. i want to stay strong for you.  i'll be lifting your sweet, little self, soon, and dont want any problems.  i scaled back, some, but not a whole lot.  we cant wait for you to work out with us.

"If I Ruled the World..."

your parents. 

mom = scorpio
dad = leo

Barmageddon

your uncle jay (your dads younger brother) is dating a girl that owns a bar in upper east manhattan - the allie way.  the establishment was on a show called barmageddon.  here is your uncle jay on the reality show talking about how delicious churros are.  we agree, uncle jay!

allie won the challenge and 10k.  she used to be a hedge fund manager, but decided to go into the restaurant biz.  it paid off!

hooray!

 

I WIN! (borat accent)

your mother went miniature golfing with some co-workers in july 2015.  not only did she win, but she got a hole-in-one on her first putt.  may you be a rockstar like her, one day.  ;)

i was the green ball.  for the spartans, of course.  perhaps, this lady bug was my good luck charm...  or, perhaps, it was just you...  i love taking pictures.  this lady bug pic is why.  one of my faves.







bathroom of the place we had dinner in littleton - jakes
 

 


i drank water, but was CRAVING a beer.  pita chips and hummus?  dont mind if i do.

 


proof
 

 


this ball was about to be a hole-in-one, but i hit it too hard and it bounced off the flag pole.  haha.  mama brings the HEAT!
 

The Broncos are Going to Super Bowl 2016

hello.  bonjour.  guten tag.

six months later...

shocked i didnt continue to write?  me too.  i wasnt certain to keep "this" going or forge a new chronicle...  there were awful things happening and i couldnt bring myself to share it with anyone on the planet.  i want to open this up to more family, but am extremely shy to have anyone too deep in my heart of writings...  you know me - the private, social butterfly.  a full-on oxymoron.

this was created for you, my love.  but, often, its purely about me.  perhaps, i'll just add a separate blog.  more family-friendly and not so deep.  maybe, maintain this for me (us) and create a new one for fam.  gram and gramps want updates on you, not me.

i'll still talk to you here.  but, it will be more for us and our closest loves.  i'm not sure.  we'll see.

you're amazing, by the way.  understatement of life.

talk about a game-changer.