"If I Ruled the World..."

your parents. 

mom = scorpio
dad = leo

Barmageddon

your uncle jay (your dads younger brother) is dating a girl that owns a bar in upper east manhattan - the allie way.  the establishment was on a show called barmageddon.  here is your uncle jay on the reality show talking about how delicious churros are.  we agree, uncle jay!

allie won the challenge and 10k.  she used to be a hedge fund manager, but decided to go into the restaurant biz.  it paid off!

hooray!

 

I WIN! (borat accent)

your mother went miniature golfing with some co-workers in july 2015.  not only did she win, but she got a hole-in-one on her first putt.  may you be a rockstar like her, one day.  ;)

i was the green ball.  for the spartans, of course.  perhaps, this lady bug was my good luck charm...  or, perhaps, it was just you...  i love taking pictures.  this lady bug pic is why.  one of my faves.







bathroom of the place we had dinner in littleton - jakes
 

 


i drank water, but was CRAVING a beer.  pita chips and hummus?  dont mind if i do.

 


proof
 

 


this ball was about to be a hole-in-one, but i hit it too hard and it bounced off the flag pole.  haha.  mama brings the HEAT!
 

The Broncos are Going to Super Bowl 2016

hello.  bonjour.  guten tag.

six months later...

shocked i didnt continue to write?  me too.  i wasnt certain to keep "this" going or forge a new chronicle...  there were awful things happening and i couldnt bring myself to share it with anyone on the planet.  i want to open this up to more family, but am extremely shy to have anyone too deep in my heart of writings...  you know me - the private, social butterfly.  a full-on oxymoron.

this was created for you, my love.  but, often, its purely about me.  perhaps, i'll just add a separate blog.  more family-friendly and not so deep.  maybe, maintain this for me (us) and create a new one for fam.  gram and gramps want updates on you, not me.

i'll still talk to you here.  but, it will be more for us and our closest loves.  i'm not sure.  we'll see.

you're amazing, by the way.  understatement of life.

talk about a game-changer.

is it the double full moons? mercury renegade.

my little bubba.

as your mom, i cant sugarcoat things too much.  but, i, also, wont be telling you every detail.  not here, not now.  i'm just kind of trying to survive, over these last few weeks.  and thats the truth.  i'm extremely stressed and the universe has decided to not make it any easier for me.  i'm struggling, but i'm holding on for dear life and know, deep in my heart, that we'll make it.  i have to.  for you.  if there is anything about life, its that idle hands are pure evil.  we are energy.  we need to put our lives into motion using that energy.  if we dont keep moving, like stagnant water, we die.  (you're wiggling like crazy right now, by the way.  ;)  i just want you to know that there isnt anything in this world from which i wont protect you and at any cost.  i'm creating you.  and in that, comes great responsibility.  my pregnancy with you has been near perfect.  you didnt make my hormones go wild, you've been sweet and quiet, overall, and wiggle around just the right amount to allow me to sleep and be comfortable.  you're a blessing to me, so far.  the same cant be said for whats been brought onto me in the last weeks.  i'm, genuinely, at a loss and am going to have to pick up the pieces and make my own way.  i thought we were established, i thought we were moving through life at a perfect pace, and i thought universal love would prevail, over all.  i'm too big of a dreamer.  and am weary.  my serenity prayer magnet that my godmother gave me and that i've had for years and years got broken last night.  perhaps, its a sign.  perhaps, i'm not where i belong and i have to accept it.  no matter what happens, my life is all about making life grand for you, now.  not living in undeserved dysfunction, like we are.  i had even more plans, but they're breaking, as we speak.  you have to roll with what life gives you and you have to be a man about it all.  in my case, woman. 

i love you.  and i'm sorry for anything that didnt go according to my loving plan.  life is hard.  all that i've ever wanted in this life is to be happy and use my loving spirit to get there.  but, if it cant happen for me, i will try it for you.  i promise.

if i'm grateful for anything, at this moment, its all of my family, on both your dad and my side, and you.

*loving hugs from mom*

 

Last Non-Fathers Day Fathers Day

 

a very fun brunch in bed for your father.

i highly doubt he will be celebrating fathers day quite in this fashion...  ;)

it will be much more special, moving forward.  ♥

Life is Better Because Tacos

we went to denvers first annual taco festival.  and they have A LOT of room for improvement.  haha.  who would have thought that an event with tacos would need ANY help.  it was composed of several taco trucks (which is a big thing, right now), midget wrestling, and live music.  marijuana is alive and legal here in CO and there was a "station" in the back that you could just walk into and buy, smoke, and sell all associated items.  there was this guy, totally chillin' in the sun, loving life...  and yes, you read that right...  $1.  it says in small letters that you cant read, "practically free weed."

your adorable father trying to make a "t" for TACOS while holding my food as i picture him.

 

it wasnt an elephant ear, but its the closest i can get to it...  funnel cake dipped in carmel.  

mmmmm.  

its your first funnel cake and WONT be the last.  ;)