conception

ok, little one.  we, very well, may live in a different part of denver once you're born, so here is a tiny peep into our current situation.  we, technically, live in the city of denver, but are LITERALLY on the border of a little city called glendale (pic below).  the glendale sign is right in front of our family room window.  if we lived in unit a, we would be in glendale, but we live in unit b, which is denver.  see those beautiful grassy fields?  that is infinity park (notice the big "8" for infinity - pretty cool) where the rugby players practice and play and where your dad and i wanted to sign up for our gym memberships, but since we live in building b, not a, we were denied.  your father was not a happy camper and had lots of colorful words.  he said some very funny things when that happened.  you'll learn that you always want to be on his good side.  ;)  italian blood runs through his veins and italian tempers are valid.  even his pediatrician told his mother that he had a temper when he was 3.  yes, the tender age of 3.  truth be told, you'll probably NEVER be on his bad side...  he's amazing and you'll be one of the luckiest children on the planet to have him father you.  just wait.  he's actually so cool that i've always feared being the second-place parent.  silly, perhaps, but children gravitate to him like no other.  animals too. 

anyway, your mom works in that tall black building on the left.  the tallest one.  the view from the top floor is breathtaking.  you can see the rocky mountains for miles (you cant see it well in this pic, but that dark line below the clouds is the mountains).  your dad works in southern denver @ a retirement investment bank.  im in healthcare and hire healthcare professionals to care for long term, disabled children.  my job is why we moved here.  we lived in san diego for 16 years, prior.  its the longest that i've ever lived anywhere in my life and, to be honest, i miss it dearly.  i lived here, in denver, when i was very young, so its interesting to be back as an adult.  i will ensure your life fairs much better than mine, at that age.  its part of the reason i waited so long to have a child.  stability.  i've become very alert and keen to and in this life and have always been a cycle-breaker.  i want you to be the same way.  make your own beautiful life because if you fall into other peoples cycles, you'll never find out who you really are or are made of.  who knows how things will pan out...  we just may go back to cali where your grandparents reside.  you're going to LOVE them.  especially your grandmother.  shes one of the most incredible humans on earth.  a very classy woman that never misses a chance to tell you how much she loves you, never misses a birthday (you ALWAYS get a card, balloon, cake...  something), a holiday, or anything in between.  its important to her and she makes you feel very loved.  she's been a like a second mother to me and i'm so grateful for her because were it not for her, we would have been very alone all those years.

anyway, your own parents have always been very adventurous - thats how we got to san diego!  sold my car and crammed our whole lives into a jeep and took a six day long road trip.  but, there is a lot to do here in our new state though, so we'll see how we like it.  we're still settling in.  but, like i said, i really miss our endless summer...  i always imagined waking up to the beach, each morning, with you in my arms.  things change.

all of our decisions, from here on out, will be mainly due to you.  =)