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hi, little bear.  i'm trying!  your mom is complex human, it seems, but not really. 

see?  ha.

you're seven months, today, and i'm loving you more and more, every single day.  its amazing.  i took you to your pediatrician appt yesterday and got a few vaccines for you...  im sorry, and i hope i didnt do the wrong thing.  vaccs make me sick to think about, but if you were to obtain an illness, i would never, ever forgive myself.  ever.  i'm weighing my options, i'm being cautious, i'm delaying them, i'm spreading them out, and i'm only getting you VITAL vaccs.  things that could kill you. 

flu?  please.  i'm not so stupid as to not know how to give you a strong immune system.  no flu shots.  and if you get the flu, we'll care for you and you'll have a STRONGER immune system because of it.

anyway, i cried my eyes out, all the way home, with you in the back sleeping to the sounds of the ocean from the sound machine i bought for you.

i prayed.  i cried.  i love you.

happy seven months, my little prince.

i'll be back ♥