4/20...dude.

okay, so i'm lagging.  i havent felt like writing, lately, due to being pretty tired, so we're doing a one-day-shot of several days. 

wk 20 was a big week for both your dad and me.  monday, 4/20, he got to hear your heartbeat and, technically, meet you for the first time.  you were at 150 beats per minute and our nurse picked up your beat immediately.  i always get to so tickled to hear you because it means things are going, at least somewhat, right.  not to be odd, but i've worried about having a lifeless body inside me without knowing...  its horrible, but i'm honest about my myriad of feelings.  NONE OF THAT.   not only did we hear you, but we heard my heart beating in, almost, unison of mine.  my body creating you makes me want to make the wisest of choices through diet.  instead of eating that fried chicken, i find myself making a green drink in the blender, instead.  nutrients.  you need them.  and i care.

something else cool about today, being april 20th, was that i was 20wks 4 days!  pretty cool!  20/4 on 4/20!  i dont smoke the delightful herbs of our nature, but i DO live in CO.  4/20 is, practically, a holiday for mary janers.  so, while we were celebrating you, the state was celebrating its freedom of medicine, which i fully condone.  dont get me started, either...  it drives me up the wall at the close-minded stigma of marijuana.  our country will feed highly addicting narcotics to people like they're candy and then ruin their lives, but smoke some flowers to relieve your pain and ease your terminally ill childs nausea???  HOW DARE YOU.  its bs and the gov' knows it.  money has been the driving force of its ban, but our state is the very first to legalize it and its working out pretty well.  crime is down, money is flowing, and minds are getting wiser (well, some minds....).  its still federally illegal, but other states are looking at the same things.  good luck to them.  granted, you will always have people that dont have sense, with which to begin, and ruin it for themselves and have gov't push back, but we need to look at the big picture and regulate responsibly, regardless of the bad apples.  i firmly believe that regulation is the key to such issues.  i'm VERY open minded, have done my share of legal and illegal things and have a strong sense of how things work.  the key to life is balance.  period.  find the center of things and you will usually find peace and order.  things of this nature are going to be a touchy subject with you since there have been some family issues, but we'll figure it out.  your dad and i have seen a lot, hence, know a lot.  we'll ensure your full comprehension on such issues.  we'll keep you busy enough to not go down junkie lane.  bul-ee-dat.