Wk 20

okay, slow down, please!  how on earth are you 20 weeks!?  didnt we just find out that you were coming to fruition???  well, you've been pretty easy peasy, considering i just talked to one of our friends last night whose wife is also pregnant (one month later than us) and full on psychotic.  he was sitting three blocks down the street from his home, in his car, just to avoid her...  yikes!  first of all, your dad and i have our issues, but we're both generally sane.  generally.  ;)  i always hear such severe horror stories of people losing their minds during pregnancy.  unless mine will come later, i think i'm doing okay.  i feel very balanced, actually.  i've always had the ability to find peace even in the most chaotic of times.  i seek buddhism, often, to center me.  even though i'm agnostic, i have a very strong spiritual connection to things.  buddhism calms me every time.  i have a few relics around the house - specifically, a hand carved, wooden buddha.  its huge and i love it.  i've always wanted to have a small shrine, of sorts, to hang it and then have beautiful and important things around it and below it.  we'll be finding a home in the next year, so that is a plan of mine.  i want to be able to kneel and chat...  anyway, i think that i've been feeling you which tickles the heck out of me, literally and figuratively!  its unreal.  i push back.  gently.  i hope you dont mind.  haha.