this whole process is difficult. i'm trying so desperately to relax, but when i have days like today, i fill up with so much fear. i woke up early with pains and aches. i have them, on and off, but today was more painful. i get nervous. check for signs. think about what i'll do. i seem to be okay, now, but i was scared today. and you want to reduce your stress, like they say, because all of your feelings go right to the baby. so, i try. really hard. often, external forces dont understand. they can be selfish, but i just have to focus. this is my time. and possibly, the very only time. i want it to be healthy and loving. its my goal for us.
get ready for tomorrow, little one. labs and checkups and stuff, oh my! xo
* * *
music: paul mccartney & wings - i love you
weather: 63 and partially cloudy
breakfast: tea, strawberry cheesecake quest bar
lunch: chicken noodle soup
dinner: not sure... per usual!
mood: less than par today. kind of stressed and searching for compassion and reassurance. emotional. damned hormones!
No comments:
Post a Comment