this was a picture that i took on the way back from my very first appointment. i was so happy because i heard your heartbeat, the sun was shining and melting everything, and when i looked in my rearview mirror, the mountains looked gorgeous. this pic isnt, at all, a real reflection of what i saw with my own eyes - its a low quality photo - but, it reminds me of how happy i was that day.
i take rearview pics a lot. i got used to it in CA because the sunsets were always blazing in my inner rearview mirror and outter mirrors. it was nearly impossible NOT to. i used to have ocean sunsets. now, i have snowy mountains. what's next?
i don't know. i'm just emotional for you. over here. we speak so "normal" on internets and texts, but i have this secret, knowing this stuff about your angel family. and everything. and i love you. but i'm quiet over here. just know, you are nestled in my heart in that deep nestle way, always. so happy for you. all levels. so, so happy.
ReplyDeleteannie. *one big, comfortable hug* of course its been an emotional journey, but i'm finally starting to feel at ease with everything. literally, this week. and i'm starting to tell random people since i'm in my 2nd trimester and just really trying to "let go" of anything that isnt healthy (the past, fear, etc.). thank you so much for your distant, but deep friendship and love. its always meant the world to me! you never have to say a word, so thank you for letting me know you're there. xo i love you, girlfriend!
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